Weekend Update

I had a not so great week but a VERY good weekend. I started off playing Bunco with co-workers at the office, it was a blast. I didn't want to go and I didn't think it was for me. I was wrong and had a fabulous time. Saturday was clean the house in the morning and Roller Derby at night. The Roller Derby was not so fun. Afterwards we went to Ricardo's for dinner. I was nominated to celebrate my Birthday by Mark M. It was fun and they sang to me and I had a great Crazy Banana dessert. Sunday I went out with the girls. Mark and Rob met Anne and I for a little B-I-N-G-O. I had a lot of fun and will try to make it out more as they go twice a week.

I am so grateful for good friends in my life at this time. I was planning on being by myself and reflecting on my horrible work week and feeling sorry for myself. Due to the friends in my life I did none of that and I had a wonderful weekend. As i am trying to work more during the week and less on the weekends I hope to have more great weekends with friends and family.

My bucket is overflowing

At my office once a month we have a big KW Meeting. They do a segment called "Filling Someones Bucket". I was chosen by last months person as someone who fills her bucket. She said some nice thing about me and how she is grateful I was able to teach her her job, be her friend and help her out around the office. Then they let the people from the office add to it. My boss Jenni added how I help her team and she can't do it without me. Tim added how I am a part of his family and he is grateful for me and my caring for him. More and more people added their own comments on how they are grateful for me. As they continued and as I heard from an old friend's mother I realized I needed to hear these comments at this time from her and from my co-workers. I needed to hear she cares for me still and I was and am a special person in her and her husband's life. I heard the information I needed to fill my heart that has been broken for a few months. I have tears hitting the keyboard as I type, replaying all that spoke at the meeting and came up to me afterwards sharing what I meant to them or how they can't wait to get to know me, as I seem really great.

I have had an event happen that has made me question who I am and my lack of good judgement in people. I realized that in the last 3 months I have let one person affect how I see everyone and how I think people see me. These agents as they spoke of me saw a caring person with a big heart and willingness to help ease their burdens at no expense of myself. As I get older I have lost touch and grown apart from people in my past. Now I see it's not for the bad but for the good that this has happened. I can be the person who always says "YES", I just need the "YES" not to affect my own happiness. I stay to help clean up to let those in charge know I appreciate what they have put together for myself and family to enjoy. I work after hours to ease my burden of a busy schedule the next day. I answer Agent's question to educate them and make them better agents. I help make items to sell because I am enjoying the company of those around me. I say "YES" because I grow as a person. It's not a bad thing to say "YES", it's just bad when the person asking does it only because they know you will and when you do it it doesn't benefit you. I have started to say "NO" a lot more and these people still love me and appreciate all I am willing to still do. I am not a perfect person, but today I am a lot happier with myself because someone choose me as the person who touched her. In reality she help me more then she could ever know in a time I didn't think I needed anyone.

Thank you Teri O.